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"Did you ever get fed up? I mean did you ever get scared that everything was going to go lousy unless you did something? I mean do you like school and all that stuff?…You ought to go to a boys’ school sometime. Try it sometime. It’s full of phonies, and all you do is study so that you can learn enough to be smart enough to be able to buy a goddam Cadillac some day, and you have to keep making believe you give a damn if the football team loses, and all you do is talk about girls and liquor and sex all day, and everybody sticks together in these dirty little goddam cliques. The guys that are on the basketball team stuck together, the Catholics stick together, the guys that play bridge stick together. Even the guys that belong to the goddam Book-of-the-Month Club stick together…that’s all I get out of it. See? That’s my point. That’s exactly my goddamn point. I don’t get hardly anything out of anything. I’m in bad shape. I’m in lousy shape."
God help me… If I can do all that in Five years this life will be WELL WORTH Living.
though it seems kind of flimsy to chase after a dream (a figment of my imagination)… but after the life I’ve had Redemption is a bright shining dream that can turn a girl from suffering from depression, PTSD, BPD, and Suicidal ideation to a girl in the process of overcoming these labels, thought patterns.
I’ve got a dream now, an idea of what I want to make of this life, who I want to be, how I want to be living…
I’ve got a dream and I’m going to chase it until I’m living it.
Just finished reading Fydor Dostoevskey’s “White Nights.”
It was one of those rare experiences… where the literature moved me and pushed me to discover something more than obvious themes and breathtaking imagery. It was only a short story and yet I found myself living through all sorts of emotions. it was only a short story and yet it has moved me more than some of the books I have read.
I am curious about Fydor. Thankfully, “White Nights,” was part of the Best of short stories book I took out from the library.
In related news all systems are a go for school. Last four of five classes to graduate begin on the 29th! yay. I’ve already spoken to one of my professors and from what I gather Virgina Woolf is going to be inserting herself into my life come the Fall.
Should be interesting considering what little I know about her and what experiences I have had myself.
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